EvErYtHiNg Is UnPrEdIcTaBlE...
Monday, June 23, 2008
still at term 1 of my poly life and it had like past for 2 months plus le... dunno why i still can't adapt to the lifestyle of poly yet... i still have the urge of giving up on my studies... i feel kind of stress especially during tests and mst... people are trying very hard to study as they aim high... but as for me, i tried my very best to study le but yet i still don really understand wat the hell the teacher is talking about... i just hate the life i'm having now... why can't it be like the past... not so much stress as compared to now... i really miss the time i have in secondar school... can i go back to that time??? i suppose this is so impossible and people will think that my thinking is so childish but what can i do.... i really hate poly life... though in poly, i can get to know a lot of people all over the school but i can't find the happiness i have during secondary school days...when i started wanna study , i will always thought of running away and don feel like studying...why am i like that right now??? people will always say i lazy but have they even think that why am i like that... why do i have this kind of feelings... i just feel like crying right now sia...can anyone tell me what i should do to overcome that??? can anyone teach me...don tell me to tell my parents bcoz i think that it wouldn't help at all... bcoz they would just tell me go study lor... that's all they would say... or maybe they will say go find your senior for help lor... but which senior is so free to help me leh... non lor... i hate studying... i hate studying....
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