EvErYtHiNg Is UnPrEdIcTaBlE...
Thursday, June 26, 2008
today went back to sec school with edmund and see a lot of teachers... all are still very concern about our studies... teachers took special concern abou edmund's awards stuff.. haiz den i dunno wat to say le... i onli can sit quietly and dunno wat i can say.... (so boring... lol.... jkjk)when teachers start to ask me about my studies, i also dunno wat to say bcoz i just feel so stress about my studies... but in the end, i told them so-so...but deep in my heart, i wish to say i have the thoughts of giving up... lol...but dunno why i just don feel like saying that out...while waiting for edmund to call other teachers, i saw mr ong and he saw me... so he asked me over and asked me how was my studies... without me saying much, he like he is able to see wat i'm thinking... he says that i don suits this kind of course if he did not see me wrongly... he feels that i'm more people oriented as compared to technical studies... (somehow i agrees with wat he say) so he asked me whether i have the thought of dropping this course go change to another course which he thinks might suits me more... when he says about tourism and early childhood course,i suddenly got very hyper... he says he believe that his conclusion wasn't wrong... that was wat i prefer to study in the first place... is just that my i'm unable to hit the cut-off point... but no matter wat... i think i'll try one more term and see how... i don wish to retake my o levels so i presume that i might go into private school if i quit this course... But no matter wat, i'll try to like course as this is a course which i have choosen myself... i believe that if i wanna continue, i will really go pass the three years... the worst thing that i will be suffering that's all... should i just let it be and continue like that?? is it worthwhile after i graduate? ?this might not be the ending i wan but it might be the best solution... should i quit my studies?? i'm so confused now... haiz....
Fire Love @11:36 PM;
Monday, June 23, 2008
still at term 1 of my poly life and it had like past for 2 months plus le... dunno why i still can't adapt to the lifestyle of poly yet... i still have the urge of giving up on my studies... i feel kind of stress especially during tests and mst... people are trying very hard to study as they aim high... but as for me, i tried my very best to study le but yet i still don really understand wat the hell the teacher is talking about... i just hate the life i'm having now... why can't it be like the past... not so much stress as compared to now... i really miss the time i have in secondar school... can i go back to that time??? i suppose this is so impossible and people will think that my thinking is so childish but what can i do.... i really hate poly life... though in poly, i can get to know a lot of people all over the school but i can't find the happiness i have during secondary school days...when i started wanna study , i will always thought of running away and don feel like studying...why am i like that right now??? people will always say i lazy but have they even think that why am i like that... why do i have this kind of feelings... i just feel like crying right now sia...can anyone tell me what i should do to overcome that??? can anyone teach me...don tell me to tell my parents bcoz i think that it wouldn't help at all... bcoz they would just tell me go study lor... that's all they would say... or maybe they will say go find your senior for help lor... but which senior is so free to help me leh... non lor... i hate studying... i hate studying....
Fire Love @11:57 PM;